Validation, I need some much needed validation. Lately, I feel so worthless. Underappreciated. Unglamorous. It just feels like I have nothing else going for me other than what is obvious. It's like I'm nothing more than just a host.
There is a great example of this in the Bible. The apostle Paul “learned the secret of living in every situation” (Philippians 4:11-13). Self-esteem is an attitude of respect for and contentment with oneself based on the recognition of one’s abilities and acceptance of one’s limitations.
It is impossible for you to conjure up self-worth/esteem yourself. That feeling of happiness in acquiring something is a poor substitute for the true joy of contributing. The pursuit of perfection and approval drives us steadily farther from peace and self-confidence. If we focus our attention on our worldly resources, we will inflate ourselves with pride.
Change happens to all of us. We will experience physical and mental growth, personal experiences, and changing social situations that will affect our identity. Identity is a person’s sense of placement in the world -- that which tethers us to our self-worth. Our identity can easily be over-inflated when our self-worth is miscalculated. It is healthy to remember, as we mature and circumstances change, that we are not bound by how other people evaluate us.
I think I need to love myself more. Take time to care or pamper myself. I know I have a huge responsibility coming up but that doesn't excuse me from taking good care of myself. It sucks that no one understands me, no one gets me, not even you. I think I know what I need to feel good, and if you can't give me that, well I've got myself to depend on and I guess I just have to accept that reality.
